"I've Moved On. NOT?"

"'What a day. I seem to have realized a lot of things ever since I became a junior. Really. I thought that I'm ready to move to the next chapter of my life, and I did. But when things happens like it's deja vu, I can't help but remember the past and think if I really moved on. Of course I will always say to myself, it's done. Don't think about it anymore. But then, I can't help but thinking, have I really went on; or I'm just in denial? I hate that feeling. I hate that it bothers me everytime I see the reality that has been slapped to my face and yet I can't accept it. But what will you do, if you're in my situation? What if you're stuck between Hey, I've moved on and it's alright to see them together and Do I still like him? If not then why it still hurts to see them together? Damn, these things are making me all fuzzy. That's why I'm writing these things now. It really helps me think and see that there's still someone waiting for me out there. I just have to find him or let him find me. Haha, okay I know it's corny but please let it be. Anyway he probably does not even care if I look for someone I deserve more, right? Now then, I'm renewed!' Saphira smiled as she finished writing on her diary. She really felt refreshed, light and happy that she let out all her feelings. And then she lay on her bed, getting ready to sleep."

If you're wondering what's these things are all about, it's a soon-to-be part of the story I'm writing. It's a story of girl who liked an "almost perfect" guy. But there's just one problem; the guy doesn't even know she existed. And when she realized that it's not worth the wait, she decided to let it go, even if it hurts. Yes, she moved on, but memories are still coming back to her. After a few months she met a new guy and became her close friend. Their bond was so tight that everybody but them thought that they were going out. She was happy, but wait. Why is there somebody from her past that is entering her quiet, happy life yet again?